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Handphone..................Kisses

2006-05-29T16:26:00.000+08:00

- Handphone -Mummy got a new handphone.... -Me want!! Me want!! -But mummy says "No! cause i've just changed my handphone and its only like 5-6months old?" - -She says that she'll be getting 3rd aunt a handphone in 3-6 months time =) -SOOOOOO......... -I made a proposal to mummy -Here's how it's like -I give 3rd aunt my phone (cause, 3rd aunt wants a phone which she can call, and take pics with. Mine can) -Mummy gets me a new one (Jan's a meani) -Mummy started laughing and told daddy about it - = they both laughed at me -BUT!!! -They say, they'll think about it AND -IF i do well for my mid exam, they'll consider about it -Got to buck up in my exam.. -MuWaHaHaHaHaHaHa!!!! Jan got Kissed -Oh.. class time.. -Was fun today -HAAA!!! kids were totally cute, adorable, fun, lots of crying, new babies etc... -I want to bring them home -AHH!!! i got kissed by my little kid Asha -As they were going home, singing their goodbye song, they'll go hugg their friends and teachers -Asha started kissing his friends -It was sooooooo cute and funny -Some didnt want his kiss but he wanted to give them(both male and female) -Any way, he gave his kiss, while some kids were wiping it away.. HAHA!! poor Asha. -He came up to me, gave me a hug and kissed me.. phew on my cheek. Both cheeks -He did it to cia too -Then cia's mummy But on the LIPs.. haha.. -AHAH... Lucky he didn't kiss me there or i'll cry. -I gave my first kiss to a kid.. NO!!! -I've got to start pratiscing my head turns to beware of his kisses. Oh.. his kisses are wet!!

2006-02-26T18:54:00.000+08:00

You scored as A walk 2 Remeber. Your movie romance thing is a walk to remeber!. Your a goody to shoes just looking for the bad boy to turn into a good boy. It doesnt matter if ur dieing or if ur alive you want to create the miracle of how love can change a persons life 4ever.

A walk 2 Remeber

70%

Casablanca

60%

Drive me crazy

55%

Beauty and the beast

55%

Fight club

50%

Mean girls

50%

She's all that

50%

Get Over It

45%

Grease

35%

Spiderman

35%

What movie best shows ur romancez?
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boo

2006-02-09T03:27:00.000+08:00

suprised to see me blog here? been still blogging.. but no longer here... somewhere else thou.. some knows.. i'll try tp catch up with this blog at times.. yeh.. miss this blog thou.. but.. la la la la.. i dont know what to say.. so.. yeh.. if you know my other blog, cya there.. trala..

my kids friends n me

2006-01-09T13:24:00.000+08:00

My little boy grows and his reading.. AWWW!! cute!!

Ivy!! love her so much!!

Me,ShuWen(my buddie), and our little angel Celest:)A darling she is

Celest and me, Celest and Ivy

Rae,Me,Celest; Rae,Celest,Ivy,Wen

London Bridge; Me and Joyanne

Me Ken ken and Kai Kai

Me and hui; Our new angel:)

abonded

2006-01-07T18:47:00.000+08:00

hmm.. havent updated here for sometime le.. oppz.. no! i did not abandon this site.. i love it soo much.. why would i ever do such a thing? haha.. i've been blogging in my xanga.. my new stuff from 2006 :) check it out when you have time ok.. ;p im bored.. its been raining crazy here for some time or should i say, days.. its not making my day when it rains.. :( nothing much to update thou.. my life is boring.. i think.. haiz..

my past updates

2006-01-02T11:36:00.000+08:00

emotions: OK

30 Dec I didnt go out.. erm.. maybe i did.. Went to cia's house.. cia and huiis coming to my house for lunch and study.. Went there, started to play "Guess me right"(i dont know the games name.. anyhow giveit a name)Played two rounds while cia was in her room. Got hungry, went to grab a bag of chips(yung's advise. Cut down on chips..) played and ate.. next we played cludo.. Cia's out..she grabed another bag of chips due to ours were done, finished..(Yung: oppz.. i ate 2 bags..)played two rounds of cludo, 1st round, cia won cause huiis and i guessed wrong..yeh!! i won the second round.. lucky me i guess.. left cia's house and came to my house..cooked pasta for them.. oppz sorry, i ran out of pasta sause so i used cambell soup.. heehee! but i THINK, it turned out ok.. :O
Had lunch, they loved raul(my dog). daddy told them his jokes and his op in china..
I'll write out one of his joke.. can you guess?

How would you know, if adam and eve were chinese or not chinese?
Once you guessed it, tell me ok.. i'm waiting.. hehe...
I was online with the wingliners..
cia and huiis wanted to walk raul so we did..(walked passed *******'s house) raul was happy.. cia.. sorry if raul gave you a hard time.. at 6+, we left.. i had to go meet gor, aunty doreen, uncle eng kiat, kenneth and kevin to dinner.. kar hua and i spoke.. I, was the usual self.. getting all blur, not knowing where i was and where im going.. "Going out with jan, hmm... bring a map along ok"
Had dinner and home..
Thanks gor for dinner!! -His first pay check-

31 Dec
Didnt do much.. house hold chores, chat online.. my usual.. it's NEW YEARS EVE!!! went out at night.. left the house at 10? meet joanne to see the fireworks.. haha.. got my manicure done..(i cant stop 1 minute without staring at my fingers.. went to see the fireworks.. omg.. they were beautiful.. got a video of it.. heehee! i and jo were screaming.. poor guy infront of us must have went home deaf, as we screamed into his ears..not really into but we were beside his ears.. is that still counted as into??
had macdonals for dinner cum supper(2 in 1)i didnt eat dinner.. the place was super pack..
trains were not working.. closed buses too.. daddy picked me up.. reached home at 2am..talked to yung and jen jie for a while then slept.. *yawn*

1Jan went to church.. kids performance canceled.. too packed.. next week.. huiying and wei can see it.. church ended, meet pearlyn, gillian, jaclyn,(i forgot the girls name but it starts with a j), 3 guys.. forgot their name too(will ask then update) heehee.. had KFC.. talked and eat.. had fun.. pearlyn was lauging al the way.. we tried to teach her other sound of laughter.. haha.. fast learner she is..
went home. took the wrong bus home.. how blur can i get.. should take 853 but took 135.. longer way home.. bumped into sharlyn(my neighbour).. gave me a lift home.. Gor was like, "you took the right bus home. just switch to another bus" me:"No lah.. later you say i waste money"
Helped clean up here and there and left to pick mummy up.. mummy's coming home.. (: saw mummy at the airport..
Gor: did you bring your pass?
Jan:Nope. Why?
Gor:You got pass dont bring.. You should have broght it.. Go in and help mum.
Jan: Oh.. i forgot..

after fetching mum, we went home, went to aunty emily's house for dinner.. yong tao fu.. my fav.. didnt eat rice, just had the ingrediants.. yummy.. full.. watched rat race.... went online, no one there.. slept..

thats my day..
Oh.. and i did another blog site.. new year, new blog

2005-12-31T21:39:00.000+08:00

-A lesson for not finishing your meal-

-The out come of not listening to your elders-

-my fight with my.. ERM.. whats this im holding? nevermind.. its me or its you..*evil laughs*-

- and it gets worse -
It goes on..

-a toast of champaine(sparkling juice)-

-the out come of drinking too much sparkling juice-
Lesson of the DAY!! SPARKLING JUICE ARE DANGEROUS!!!THEY GET YOU DRUNK!! HAHA!!

forgot to update

2005-12-29T09:20:00.000+08:00

*_______28 Dec eMoTiOnS : HIGH__________*

28 Dec(Wednesday)
It's the usual again.
BUT
i got scolding from daddy and gor gor..
REASON
Jan has been on the computer from 8am to 7pm.
Was online chatting with friends.
Whats wrong with that?
Bro said "It's good to keep in touch with your friends."
I am doing it. Keeping in touch with friends. heehee..
I'm band from the coms
WaHHHHHHHHHHHH(jan cries)
Went over to cia house for dinner..were suppose to go to watch narnia but cia didnt want to go.. so we didnt.. We had KFC as i and hui were craving for chicken.. Cia and me went to buy.. yummyy.. we went to shop n save to buy the usual.. GUESS GUESS!! if you guessed sparkling juice? Yupp you're so right..
Speed up alittle..
Home! Had dinner(KFC), and cia's food.. Guess what.. thannks to hui's "BRILLENT" idea we each had to take a box of food.. 1 contained rice, 1 had hotdogs with eggs, another had brocoli and last had soup.. poor me.. cia took the hotdogs with eggs, hui took the brocoli, i took the soup but put it back and took the rice(stupid me)wei got the soup in the end..
WHY AM I THE YPUNGEST OF THEM ALL??
-jan sobs-
i got bullied by 3 jie jies.. waaa..
cia held my hand, hui tickled me while wei fed me.. yeek.. haaaaaaaaaa... run for cover!!! but i could not.. they all had me down on the floor!! WAAAA!!!
anyway..we rested, played cludo.. was fun.. had sparkling juice.. went high again..played weird games with songs.. danced to deep down in my heart.. Hope you know the song.. was crazy..haaa..
went home..reached home at 12midnight.. janarella reached home before her carrage broke.. haha..

29 Dec did nothing much.. slacked at home.. did house hold chores.. chat online with wingliners, hui, cia and wei.. wei left to shanghai.. poor girl.. she has a hair line crack on her foot.. lend her my shoes.. good ol jann..haha.. prasing myslf..omg!!had dinner alone.. sob sob.. thats my day.. missing wei now.. sob sob!!

Made more friends

2005-12-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

*_________Emotions: High_________*
Was at home.. Talked to friends on msn.. had a great chat with yung. haha.. i didnt know she is younger then moi..She's really cute.. And the way she told me how she caught the robber with her dad, was cool. Wish i was there to witness the whole thing. haha.. But at a young age, standing up for her rights, is cool and brave of her. I wont really do that thou.. haha.. had a good chat with Jen jie, Anna jie, Kim jie, Lai and Yung.. Had a great time with them. Went over to Cia jie house. My intentions were to collect my stuff and go, but in the end, i was left being Janarella. My mice didnt turn up, neither did my fairy god mother and carriage. sob sob.. cia.. you.. you.. URGH!!! im crazy over the song she sent me.. i came home at 2230++ nearly 2400.. must learn to be pro.. international time..haha..

27 Dec
The top one was the 26 dec blog.. i forgot what day it was.. What a sotong am i.. geez.. Lets detail and story my day ok.. here we go.
0824:Jan wakes up. First thing she does is, turn on her com, next brush her teeth, comb her hair and everything. Msn. Talked to Jen jie jie and Yung.
09++ - 12++: still chatting with Jen jie jie and Yung.. Discussing on how alce so dont look alike the baby pic we saw.. chat chat chat.. Had to meet xuan at 2pm. 1315:im not ready yet.. took a shower.. came back to com wondering what to wear to go out.. Had Jen jie and Yung to help out.. Wore my artist cap, bule top, blue jeans, white slippers, hand carry wallet.
14++: Was early, waited for xuan, kh kept me company on the phone till xuan arrived.
1430+:Meet the girls. Mischivious they were. signed xuans belated birthday card. *stomach growls* hungry.. decided to go to pasta mania. before we went there, jo passed me my present. conversain..
Jo:open the small box first, and wear it now.
slyn:Jan, the card got your dear dear leh.
Jan(blur):Dear? (opens the box nicely,neatly and slowly. a necklace..ooooo...love it girls..) thanks..(opens card)*jan screams and fell of the brick. Fell on my butt.. ouch!* a photo of young alec and my name written, happy birthday janice!
slyn:Yeh.. who else will you have thought it was?
Jan: Zk..*screams and run away* Friends:Laugh and starts teasing me
-Poor me-
***note: Zk is a computer FREAK. Trying to matchmake me with him? No way.. we are soo not compatable. he's a com freak while im not..***
end of timeing..cant remember time.
anyways..
we headed of to town to pasta mania.. Yummy.. i used up the whole bottle of cheese used alot of chilli..
My friends were saying: Jan is had a tiff with her dear..
(i did not.. im single!)
ate my fill.. had spicy chicken..hmmmm... after that went walk walk.. from one end of town to the other..
when to taka to mos for dinner.. i shared a fries and ice milk tea with ping.. FULL
left for home... didnt buy anything.. came home and forgot to collect my cap from charmain.. :(
Came home hungry.. had chocolate and cookies.. yummy.. watched tv and ate..
Daddy's friend Da Kai and son came over.. They were touched about gor's love story with kris..(I miss Kris.. RIP KRIS) stayed to chat a while and left..went on msn and got teased again..
-> Jan does not lyk ZK.. He yeeks me out..<-
slyn,chermain chat for a while then left.
Jen jie came online. Spoke to her alittle while then she left.. going to chinatown..
Chinatown.. me want to go buy my shows.. Things there are cheap.. Jan must go soon..
Jan's getting sleepy.. *Yuan*.. will have to wake up early.. going to watch Narnia tomorrow night.. with wei,hui and me..cia cant make it.. Kong outting..(still looking for the king kong song for friendster) Kong rocks..its 0327 now.. late late..
Jan goes to sleep.. night..

Christmas eva and Christmas

2005-12-26T10:59:00.000+08:00

*____Emotions: HIGH______*

24 DecChristmas Eve.
continue with my old update. I left for christmas shopping alone.. noo.. i said that.. Went to cia house.. yesh..I pronounced her short name wrong all the time. kept calling her Sia..haha.. Was High there.. I,Huiying and wei stayed over. Bought sparkling juice and $40++ worth of chippss.. lucky no robber.. if there were, i'll tell them, dont harm us. I'll give you my chipss they are worth $40..haha.. i think my head will be rolling..
When back to cia's house. Helped huiying with the cookies.. i put and ate, put and ate.. HuiYing, cookies were good..
Wei jie came over at 10 plus.. i went to fetch her.haha.. i good girl horz.. heehee! Jan poor thing, ate cup noodle.. Jan good girl.. i heated up the wang wang biscuit..haha.. Was hot hot hot.. Jan was high.. I was like going in and out going "Hi Darlz.. Bye Darlz". Made oreo cheese cake.. Yeh late at night.. to kill time.. haha.. Recepie found on net. Required electric beater but didnt have so we used human mixer.. cool yeah..Needed lemon but didnt have, so we used orange which looks like a lemon, colour like a lime, smells like a orange.. a 3 in 1 fruit. haha..Finally the cheese cake was done.. I made The Kong Family friendster site.. Join us if your a kong ok.. Kong rocks.. God pa kong must be so proud of me..*cheeky laugh* Finally it was done and time strucks 12Midnight.. 'Dong''Dong''Dong''Dong''Dong''Dong''Dong''Dong''Dong''Dong''Dong''Dong'.. *Ear drum breaks!Ouch* drank sparkling juice.. WOW!!Wei jie and i pop pop the cork.. haha.. "We now witness the poping of cork by the two couple poping the wine bottle.. *clap clap* *wild wistles*heehee! cork flew high and down it went.. we drank.. -Warning! Sparkling Juice will make you drank!- Who found the discovery? Doctor JanKong!! ANyways, we played chat till 4am.. i watched beetle juice till i watched with my eyes closed.. Thats my specialities.. Wei's specialiti is reading with her eyes close.. cool yeh.. Thats one thing good being a KONG.. You join us, you get wonderful specialties.. Hui and cia ..hmm.. i guess theirs is baking cakes and cookies with their eyes close.. We went to bed chat chat chat.. We were talking about christmas stuff, but suddenly we started talking about broccali..haha.. and how joy looks like a powerpuff girl.. Joy saves the day.. Kill the broccali..Fell asleep.. *hork ku... HORK QUEEEE* zZzzzz
SHHHHHHHHHHH... Kong sleep.. disturb Kong Family, fined - Bend from: going hong kong, eating Kang Kong, watching King Kong, anything to do with the world KONG!!

25 Dec
Woke up shower, makeup, off to church.. daddy fetched us as it was raining.. Congrat me.. i didnt fall asleep during sermen.. Praise the lord... He got a non boring speaker..OPPZ!! After service, went to buy breakfast.. Cia went to meet friend..
-Jan must confess:I was hungry during service.. Was craving for chicken, fishballs, chips, cookies, OREO CAKE(someone had), chocolate and candypops

After eating we went to crech.. kids alot.. my little couple came.. DnK..Aunty lynda made tuna sandwich.. YUMMY.. Kids ate ate ate.. play play play.. i wont bug about them.. To much to talk about..
After church, we went to mos for lunch. Hui jie had mussles and ice milk tea, Wei had Prawn flitters and ice milk tea, Jan had, chicken nuggets and ice milk tea. next we went to paya lebar chinese methodis church.. Hui delivered her christmas presents....(miss out here and there)*crik crack(fingers ach)*Went to cia jie house for dinner.. Had pasta, chicken, egg, oreo cheese cake..FULL!!*BURRRRRRRRRBBBBBBBBB*
Jan made new friends. Vannessa T and Y(times2) Christin..Vannessa x2 had to leave early.. before they left, we open presents..
Jan was speechless..*1 sec, 2 sec, 3 sec, 4 sec, 1 min, 2 min, 10 min*haha..I GOT MY ARTIST CAP!!!!!!!!WOoooooooooo.. cia rulez..thanks.. love you.. mucks mucks.. Had strewberry and ice cube fights.. love the part when we sang All i want for christmass and threw strewberries at cia ..*cia!!!!!!!!:'(* threw ice cubes at christin.. haha!!*jan laughs till stomach pain* cant say poor thing.. BIRTHDAY GIRL!! took pics.. many pics.. hee..11+ went home.. reach home nearly 12..on com till 4am.. *YUAN*zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Unknown

2005-12-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

Emotions: Cool

My life is cool. i guess.. went late christmas shopping for cia, wei, huis and rest.. Jing jie got me a puppy!! (: a toy one of course..haha.. Im so gald i came to know charmain.. she's like on of my best friend in ITE.. We knew each other on the first day of school.. cool yeah.. remember how we got lost..haha.. Im the blur sotong of the class.. actually, since sec sch, Nick, sotong..haha..

Jan made new friends.. from winglin.. erm.. made 5 new friends... names, erm.. Kim, Lai, Jen, Eric,Yang. Yup..haha.. they are kinda cool.. ooo.. was blur in the conversation.. haha.. as usual.. JAN THE SOTONG!! haha.. if Rae was reading this, she'll be laughing her top off.. I love my friends man.. My friends rock my world..

*_____Who rock my world_____*
>>God
>>Family
>>Cousins
>>Friends
>>winglin
>>chocolate

Emotions

2005-12-23T08:22:00.000+08:00

~Emotions~

I blogging for yesterdays misses.

1300,took judith to orchard. Went shopping/ christmas shopping. ooo.. forgot to tell you, at NE Line yesterday, the MRT people were caroling and giving out big red Santa boots withh chocolate candy in it. We went to boarders then lucky plaza then wisma then home.. Boring? I'll note down what i did.

Boarders, Bought stuff, (Jud bought most)
Lucky Plaza, I bought perfume.
Wisma, Went for a drink. Then home.

I've been weird. As people who know me, im not the person who donates. But yesterday, at orchard, i saw this school gals asking for donations and i donated a dollar.(mostly i just walk off or just drop in a 10/20 cent coin) Walking pass the salvation army people, and donated $2(as usual, i mostly just wont care), i donated another few bucks with Jud to add $10 for the needy childrens. I felt guilt and pain in the chest when i saw this lady drop her umbralla pouch, i didnt tell her. Mostly i'll be like. Nevermind. But why? why am i feeling all this weird stuff. When i dont do the right thing, i feel guilt burn within me and my chest turns pain.

Was munjula's birthday today too. Got her a gift. Got Judith her christmas present too.

Went for my jog. We didnt jog. We walked. Floor was slippery. Walked till it started to drizzle. Siwei told me her great news. She got into Uni. The best Uni in aus/perth. When i heard it, i was so happy, overjoyed for her. If she could get in, and if she is happy where she is, i will give her my blessings and will wish her my happiness. Seriously, Siwei is now like my pain killer. I'm always having the chest pain. But with her, she kills them all. We ended the jog by going to her place for a cup of milo. i came home before midnight. A good cinderella i m.. i obeyed fairy god mothers magic..haha.. I came home, and mummy called. I miss mummy alot..
She told me to email her the books i wanted. i will soon..Mummy seems to be enjoying herself. I told her about my chest pain and asked her why? She said it's due to emotions. It will go away soon but no! its been like that for days.

Now its 0848 thats what i see on my com screen. I just woke up not so long ago. The first thing i did was blog. I woke up not because im not sleepy but the pain came back. That woke me up. I want to change. I'm going to be a better person and im trying to improve.. HELP ME!!

My bro is going to donate blood soon. So am i. I made up my mind. Will donate my blood as most people might need it more then i do. If is not going to be pain, Will try my best to donate evey month.

DEATH?

2005-12-22T08:57:00.000+08:00

hmm.. what shall i write? i woke up crying as i still had the pain. i prayed and prayed. But this time round, i didn't pray using my heart but my mouth. I said it iut loud to God, to Jesus and heaven. I know they hear me. Yesterday, i went to see grandma. Thou grandma is always on bed, i still spoke to her as i know, she hears me. When i spoke to her, i felt her hands move and she made sounds which she hardly made. I think she was trying to tell me that she hears me and loves me.

Went to siwei's house after lunch. i was super board at home. Miss mummy. Watched a few vcds here and there, 3ple nine and jumping the controls on the 7pm show. oppz.. I left to go home. skipped dinner as i had a bit at wei's place. went christmas delivering. House to house. We delivered most of the presents went to aunty doreens house as Jon had to help with the com(his a com expert, I know, i learn com parts but is more of they know me then i know them. I cant even different shade a male and female com part. ): ) Had log cake and cookies there. came home, missed jogging. i think i should consult a doc. having pain at around my kidney area.. haiz!! me? so troublesome.. so much P R O B L E M.. ya.. whats my problem.. i slept.. just woke up and here i am.. writing...erm.. nono.. is typing my journal of yesterday.. try to write tonight..

Pain within me

2005-12-21T09:10:00.000+08:00

Wanted to blog last night but was too tired after my "JOG" which many dont believe i do..haha.. Yes! night jog..(:
20 Dec Today? No no no.. Yesterday, Kar Hua and i went out.. To celebrate my belated birthday and her early advance birthday. We've been great friends ever since and have been for 5 going 6 years. Our first stop was Plaza Singapura. Went there and had yoshinoya.. AGAIN!! we ate till we were super full.. it was mountained up to my neck.. Went for a walk. Thought it will sattle it down but it kind of did.. PS was boring. Going there many times, see same stuff gain and again.. Headed down to HEREEN.. walked down.. stomach..was much better.. (:but still full not bloated..walked around still nothing to see. Went to see the NEOS, nothing much fancy..Went to cini,nothing much either.. watch a movie? YES!! there was. The Family Stone. Kar Hua wanted to watch it. But #1, it was at 7+ will end around 9+ and we woke be able to have our promised dinner. #2, Tickets were all sold out. Guess that was fated for us.. (: so we headed for bugis, Went stright to take our NEOS.. Guess what.. we have been friends for 5 years +, and this was our very first Neo print together.. how happy i was.. and i movie i now owe, that will be our very first movie too.. (: Went to raffles hotel to my favourite restaurant and had our dinner.. The food was good but i was too full.. Over ordered.. Like mummy always say to me, "Your eyes are bigger then your stomach" haha.. mummys right.. i did over order and yes, lots of doggie backs but hey, at least i didnt waste.. (: oppz.. after we had our fill, i wanted to pay but the manager stopped me(he and mummy are great friends) He said wait aminute.. take a seat, not so fast. I got a suprise for you. i didnt know what was about to happen, but suddenly, he came with my fav cheese cake. he said, Happy birthday gals, enjoy, he looked at me and said, "Your fav". Omg.. i felt so guilty.. to me, when my fav cheese cake comes along, no matter how full i am, i will always make space for it.. walking up to him, i said, add the cake bill in, i'll pay for it.. he rejected it.. he replied, "Never mind, once in a while" I'm a bad bad girl. I got free cake and i didnt finish my fav meal.. how bad can i get..

Came home, was already 10pm, opened my presents Kar hua gave me.. OMG.. Thanks so much Kar Hua, a belt.. i needed one.. How did you know? a Billabong belt.. christmas, erm.. i have not open yet.. waiting till christmas to open all at once.. (: Meet Siwei for our jog, was not really a jog thou as we mostly walked.. so i guess, its still excerise thou.. I was a little down..had problems, Wei was not happy.. I'm angry now..not angry because she cried but for the thing that hurt her.. I hate seeing Wei cry!!hurts me to see her cry.. Our childhood game and promise, when one cries the other will cry along.. i did.. we cried together..I wont say why.. its between me and her..

Pain within me.. Thats my heading..
I'm in pain.. i dont know why.. ok.. i'll spill my beans.. i've been adicted to this site called winglin where people write all their short novels and stories etc.. When i came along, i came to know that one of the best writers which i've read so far past away after giving birth to a baby girl.. I dont know why, but i started have heart pain, twisting stomach and silent cries. I dont really know the person at all only know her name,that she is married happily.. but somehow, having this pain, made me feel as if i known her for a long long time. Reading the last comments people left for her, i cried. Then i knew how short ones life can be..I suddenly had all flash backs of deaths i been through.. First was Da Dio, He felt us as he had cancer..ii didnt cry..i laughed and played as if nothing happen..People were crying and crying..i just stood there and wonder..What happen..Second was Granduncle Puay Hee,i was at a young age. I didnt know anything about death. I laughed through the ceromoney watching my aunts, uncles and familys cry.. Why? i always wonder? Why cry? Followed was Wai Po.. I cried..i never said how sorry i was..i never told her how much i loved her..i could only do that on her death bed..I remember her saving me from all the beatings which mummy and daddy will always do when i'm naughty but wai po will always hug me and tell my parents, dont beat her..dont beat her.. i miss her soo much..i promised her that i will do well but my grades droped.. I didnt do well for my 2nd sem test..i dropped 0.3points.. thats bad.. really bad..then after was Kris.. I miss her too.. i still keep the earings she gave me.. the last card she gave me and the book she gave me for christmas.. Kris.. i miss you..so does my bro.. why must one go at such young age? i made promised to you but i never fullfilled it..Kris im mean am i? Im Unfaithfull..What shall i do? I relized after you left and after the girl whom i never knew, left, i relized how frgile a life can be.. When you are called, you leave fast, unexpactingly..Then was ah tai po po.. read my 3 october update.. is all there..but nevermind..will be troublesome.. here's what i wrote.. *monday,03 october* Jus arrived home from ah tai po po's wake. is 1340. Cant believe that once u say leave you'll depart. to have a family member or someone so close to u depart, is really a heart pain ting. mostly pple wil say, lyk animals, once they die, buy another one lah or once spoil buy another. But no! Life is not that. once u go, no one can replace hu u were. Ah tai po po was one of a kind u may say. She was mor lyk jesus. she helps others wen their in need. Thou she's old, she lived a happy life. I stil remember those days wen i wen 2 c her. Her words to me still lingers within me. She'll say. "Mei mei nei you tok shi ma?, can lek tok she and you tang papa mama." Thou i noe little canto, is translated 2 tiz. "Mei mei you got study? must study hard and must listen to your parents." Will update her historical profile soon.. mayb bah.. Ah tai po po will always stay in my heart 4eva. Miss her dearly..** Yes.. i miss them all..(im crying now.. im in pain.. im very pain..I dont want to go.. i've not done all i need.. I will be a good girl..(about me thinking of death in the past, i wont do it, i'm afraid now..) I'm afraid of death, but im not afraid as i know where i'll be..i'll be with god..thats why i got batised..If i do go, i will be happy as i know im not alone.. im with god and jesus.. as he loves me..

my post

2005-12-19T08:42:00.000+08:00

i posting what happen yesterday the the day before yesterday.. hehe..
17 Dec
Siwei and i went out.. Went to bishan.. Was thinking.. hmmz.. Orchard and bugis there, is gonna be super crowded.. Thinking bishan will be cool, ok, less people. We were WRONG!!! It was flooded with people.. AHHH!!! Went to catch a movie.. Chicken Little..(Details: Chicken Little, 17.Dec.2005, 16h40,Hall 6, E - 11,$9.50) haha.. wei and i bought popcorn and a ice tea. Steped in, got to out seat.. I was like there asking, are we in the right place? But looking at all the kids withh their daddy and mummies, i knew i was in the right place. When we stepped in, people were starring.. Like, why are these gals watching a kiddy show? haha.. kids we are? we did.. the movie started, beside us was a family of four, behind us was a family of six i think (Boyy kept taking..noise noise..shhhhh)and infront of us a family of four.. how i remembered? haha.. cause no one was infront of me.. :) i sat with my back on the seat, butt out of the chair and legs on the front seat infront of me.. haha.. as if it was my home.. Then we started to enjoy the show..(oh..about the popcorn, we finished it before the show could ever start.. ) We laughed through the show with no idea why we are laughing (pic it: whole place was quiet,only the movie was doing the entertainment, it was not a funny part, you hear this 2 gals laughing) hahahahaha..i missed one part.. wei and i started to sing the starting song which was the, mayiyahe mayiyahu.. lolalolalolahey.., the middle song,spice gals sang:i tell you wat i want i really really want..and ending song, dont break my heart..we went to take some neos.. haaaaaaaa.. i look weird.. haha.. messy messy hair..haha..had dinner at mos burger..left bishan, took bus 13 home.we stop somewhere oolu. walked home from there..crossing the road when we never knew how to,and started singing the spice gals song not know ing the lyrics like to drunk gals.. pass our old school(wei and i are from the same sec sch)she got a shock, i start shouting, USSS Rockz..then we started laughing.. Usss has all our memories.. miss the school and food there..We finallyy reached home and you wont believe if i told you this. I went jogging.. i know, i know, im not the person who does my work outs but.. change of mind.. heez ;\ i dont think i lost any weight from there as i came home munching on chocolatez again..haha.. went to fanfic to read some new stories and slept.. YUAN..
**Siwei.. i just want to tell you, gowing up with you,is something i can never express how happy i am..we shared everything together..we told each other our BIG screats too..i guess sooner or later, when you leave back to aus, i might cry alot.. we've been inseparable..when you leave, i wonder, who shall i play my who cry first when im down. No one knows how to playy that game with me.. if they do, they cheat..they use eye drops.. :( Thanks for everything you have shared with me.. love you lots wei.. **
18 DEC WEi followed my to church.. she had fun, made a new friend, cia's friend huiis..kids did well.. so excited, they are going to perform soon..cute theyy are.. i want a kid too.. but when they grow up, oh no!!!ok ok.. enough crap here.. i'll carry on.. after class, we went to parkway for lunch..at yoshinoya..i got the worse bdae prank.. i cant believe cia,wei,huis will set me up.. they hid my hp.. i call but dunno where? i was at the rage of crying..cia said my face went pale..haha..i was there hunting for my phone and those three were happily asking something else.. in the end i got my phone back.. dunno how it got in my bag.. it was never there.. i used my head to check..HEAD? you might think, jan you spelled wrong. no i did not.. i really used my head..as in, sticking my whole head in my bag.. heez..who restaurant was looking at me..i need a hole to hid myself..haaaaaaaaaa...so ma lu..after lunch, we went down bugis.. HUMAN TRAFFIC!!everywhere!! every corner,every wall,every walkway, every toilet, every where..we manage to squeeze our way through without getting squash.. thats a good sign..haha.. im still here.. :) WE took NEOS..cool.. will up date the neo soon.. okok.. haha.. after NEOS, we had ice kachang..its called rocky mountain..ice kachang with ice cream and chocolate syrup around it..messy eaters we are.. whole table with our bits of ice creams and ice kachang.. heez.. oppz.. we had fun.. poof..left for home..
i was so touched.. mummy daddy and bro took me to my fav restaurant.. SDS..the food there was WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!! i had roast chicken, veg and wages, after eating, was waiting for my mum to get the bill, but no, she did not.. suddenly,i heard a birthday song being played and thought WOW.. someone else's bdae same day as me? but no.. i saw a cake coming towards my table.. OMG!! the whole restaurant was singing for me.. i was there, thinking, should i cry or stay happy? i smiled.. i look so blur when i got the cake.. the waiter and waiteress i heard them say, haha, she looked so shock..after making my birthday wish, i blowed a few time, but the candle didnt go off, then it did after i big puff.. i love being seventeen!!!!!!! Thanks mummy, thanks daddy, thanks bro and thanks to cia,wei n huiis for the bdae prank!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!! MUCKZ

Friends message

2005-12-17T09:06:00.000+08:00

Kala's wishes.. Happy Birthday Janice.. Wishing you all the best in life. Study had and never give up in all you do. Will be there for you if you need me.. Have a blessed day ahead..
What more can i ask for Kala, with you as my friend and your laughter, you've made my day. Thanks Kala
Eunice - Let mi sing a birthdae song 4 u... Happi birthdaE 2 U Happi birthdaE 2 U Happi birthdaE 2 JANICE Happi birthdaE 2 U Sori if sing nt nice.. hezz.. Stay happi awaes..May al ur dreamz came true.. al e best..
Eunice, Thanks.. Love your mug and thanks for the message.. Thanks for everything..
Charmain - Hi hi. To my DEAREST FRIEND: here i am lying down on my bed wishing you a very very BIG HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Haha. This whole day starting from this moment belong to U and only U... Janice KTM. YEAH. So stay HAPPY n be HAPPY... Throughout this whole day. Yeah. N not forgetting to enjoy urself the whole of 24 hours.. Yeah. N also most important thing... Don't forget your friend who is..ME. Hahaha:)
Charmain, The message was long, but really sweet.. Thanks.. I wont ever forget you.. Never. Thanks once again. Friends forever.
Alicia - Boooox! Happy happy happy birthday!!!... Haha...May all ur wishes and dreams come true..Enjoy ur day ahead!!
HAAAAA!!! haha.. Thanks Alicia.. Thanks for the message.. We must jia you for the up coming performance.. Will work hard and hand in hand together. Brother - Dear janice, happy 17th birthday! keep growing wiser and even more full of love, passion & verve for god. Work hard, play hard. all the best in your studies. God bless you! Love jonk(17 dec 05)
Thanks kor..love you Geeta - Dear Janice, I wish you a very happy 17th birthday. Wow! Finally you've reached 17. Seen a lot of life all these years, eh? Time flies really fast. We've known each other for a very long time now. And become a lot closer. I just want you to know that no matter what happens I'll always be there for you in times of good and bad. You'll always be a friend kept in a special corner of my heart. When you are down and out, and need someone to talk to, understand and care for you, rest assured I'm always here for you.. Forever.. Time may past but our friendship will always last... I wish to be your cherished one until we breathe our last.. Oh yes, I owe you a prezzie! We'll meet up sometime later.. So sorry. I hope to always see you wearing that beautiful smile on your face always. And always try to look on the bright side. Don't keep dwelling on your unhappiness. It'll just make you even more miserable. Learn to be strong in life. Especially emotionally stronger. Happy 17th birthday once again, birthday girl! May all your wishes and dreams come true. May you always be happy. You take care and have lots of fun! Enjoy, birthday girl! It's your day! ALL YOURS! You'll always be my sexy babe!!! Thanks babe.. call me wen u wanna book mi. ok.. haha..love ya.. n you'll always b my sexy babe too..

Finally 17

2005-12-17T08:59:00.000+08:00

I'm finally 17.. cool.. Happy Birthday to me!! haha.. hey.. I'm no longer the 11mei who hasn't reached her level as her other "sisters" haha.. Thanks to Eunice. Thank you for your present.. Love the Mug.. So cute.. haha.. 4Ko, Thanks for the cool stuff and my fav, Chocolatez..haha.. gonna munch them all up..haha..cookie monster but me? im chocolate monster..haha..Mummy, Thanks for all you have given me. You gave me life and thanks for all you taught and natured me. Thanks for my new phone too.. will be posting my friends birthday wishes here as i want to thank them all.

Yesterday, I saw 7flower.. Wei lian too.. OOO They look really pretty.. Tall too.. haha.. Their tall.. really tall.. haha.. posting soon..

Horrid

2005-12-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling Horrible!! Horrible!! Horrible!! Why? You may ask? I need a job, I went for interviews but no calls have been returned!! I've been intro to jobs, but in the end, is comes back the same. Nothing!! I need cash urgently.. Haiz!! Or i maight as well stick with my airport job bah!! ANYONE HAS ANY GOOD OPENINGS?? haha.. i wont mind being a protitute just to earn cash.. if that is my last choice. What choice have i now? All job offers i dont get. Where am i going to get money? Im broke now!! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My Apology to Alicia. I know i have been like a pest who has been pestering you around about jobs. Really sorry. You might have felt irritated by me? HAha.. Really sorry.. I feel bad. :( lost too.. Im just to stuck up finding a job. Sorry cia.. Really sorry.. Dont care about what i have wrote up there. Im just not in a mood today.. Just venting my sorrows thats all.. Im writing this now as im much calmer now.. cheerZ..

Rules of e game:

2005-11-26T15:57:00.000+08:00

Rules of e game: 1. post 5 weird/ radom things abt yrself. 2. at e end of the quiz, list e name of the 5 people who u wan next to do this and leave a comment "U R tagged" in their blog and tell them to read yr blog. _______________________________________________________________________________ 5 weird things abt me: 1. always laughing 2. get lonely easily 3. loves to cry 4. want to miagrate to countries cause of the people i love 5. Love my sexy friends _________________________________________________________________________ next 5 person to do e quiz: 1. Geeta 2. yeeling 3. xiang lin 4. siwei 5. liping

sob sob sniff sniff

2005-11-17T09:01:00.000+08:00

sniff sniff... i lost my thumbdrive.. how forgetfull can i get?? left it in class on wed and totally forgot abt it.. i only remembered abt it yesterday late afternoon... waaa... today i n charmain wen n look 4 it.. GONE!!! all gone!!! i hate my brain n my mind.. wat m i gonna forget next?? haha.. my head n body bahz.. in school now... cant say much..

kar hua

2005-11-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

KAR HUA a frnd i cant buy.. even if i had a million a billion bucks, i cld nv buy.. Kar hua.. thx 4 everything.. you stood by me wen i need someone.. u were there 2 c me cry, 2 c me happy.. almost everything!! wat mor can i ask for from a frnd lyk u?? i asked myself once.. wat will life b wif out u?? i told myself.. HORRIED!! i dunno where u'd b.. thanks 4 everything.. Of all my frnds i have, my memories of u and my other best sister siwei, will b UNFORGETTABLE love you both!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

china

2005-11-04T01:56:00.000+08:00

WE're GOING TO CHINA!!!! YEAH!!! C U THERE..(DREAMLAND)

we rock

2005-11-04T01:46:00.000+08:00

Amanda, Alicia, ME, Shu Wen Rocks d mini crech..haha...

dedication

2005-11-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

19 Nov I made this specialy 4 sum1 dear n close 2 me.. she was d gal hu cheered me up wenever i was dwn.. she is none other den siwei.. haha.. supreised?? haha.. turnin 17 on d 19 of nov.. is cumin sooo soon.. hmm.. hope she'll b home soon.. hope we'll b able 2 celebrate it together lyk old times.. tiz is my dedication 2 her.. Jan says: Siwei.. gowing up 2gether wif u for 17 yrs was lyk a dream cum true.. sharing out tots and everything.. miss ur smile.. haha.. u have a bright future.. and you have grown out of d sweet sixteen.. erm.. now is seventeen.. hmmz.. seven'th heaven.. erm.. nvm.. haha... i wish u d best.. love u lotz lotz.. haha..(HEyz.. ur fav.. strewberrys n chocolate) once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! ->Jan.. (bitchy moi)haha

2005-10-31T21:01:00.000+08:00

JAN SAYS: - ChrIs: 29 oCt - happy belated burfdae.. sorry .. bt i wish u all d best. - Ying: 4 Nov - Happy burfdae.. if i do 4gt..u noe me.. miss STM..haha.. - ClAra: 7 Nov - Happy burfdae in advance.. hope u'll achive all u want and everyting.. miss ya.. muckz.. - yEe lIng jiE: 9 Nov - Happy burfdae.. we wont c each other bt mostly on msn or here.. happy burfdae.. mucks.. - ConniE: 11 Nov: Happy burfdae.. 17th burfdae.. hope you'll b 4eva HAPPIE... - ShI meI:13 Nov - Happie burfdae..haha.. dun worry. will wish u in sch too..haha.. - sIyU: 14 Nov - u too.. happie burfdae.. wish u in sch.. ``````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` Nov babbies..haha.. NOTE 2 K.H :SORRY I NOE I'VE BEEN BOTHERIN U.. BT WEN EVA IM SAD, U R OWAYS IN MY MIND.. I NOE I HAVE BEEN SCARING U AS I CRY IN FRONT OF U.. SOLI.. I'LL EXPLAIN TO U SOON.. JUS AS SOON AS I SATTLE DWN.. LOVE U LOTZ LOTZ.. SORRY 2 WORRY U.. MUCKS..

my days which i havent post

2005-10-31T20:44:00.000+08:00

hmmz.. havent post in days le.. letz c.. monday i 4gt, tuesday i 4gt, wednesday, hmm.. 4gt tt day too, thursday 4gt too and friday.. yup.. i remember tt 1.. arh.. i rolled over tiz passengers foot.. **ouch** soli.. he muz hav been cursing me as i had twichin eyes tt day..haha..
sat..i did wk again.. mummy no happy.. :( hamps.. haha..**blush blush** i pushed tis realli cute guy.. okie... i have 2 admit, i din push him as he pushed him ownself.. he's an alenth(spellin rong) a few of them.. ahh.. they were goin 4 d euro championship.. haa.. had a real fun day.. haha..
sun.. church.. taught.. haha dylis was sooo cute wif kenneth..haha.. makes a 1derful couple...haha.. love d kids lots lots..
today n ttz monday.. exam.. it was sooooooooo hard.. i omost gave up..thx wei.. if u were nt there, i sure mati.. nt 2 4gt charmain n xiang.. both helped me alot.. haha.. n u gave me most of d ans.. oppz.. i sld nt have said it. haha.. after sch, wen marina bay to fly kite.. our kite flew sooo high.. wow.. havent flown a kite 4 such a long time.. Jan says:"Erm.. if i had a chance, sorry 2 d stranger i scolded.. i din mean it bt u hit me quite hard n erm.. too bad n sorry, i had a bad hair day.. bt realy sorry. i din mean wat i said.." hope 2 gt my new hp soonn.. haahaa..so Xcitin..haha

2005-10-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

*yummy* had homemade chicken rice today.. hmmm... 4ko's bdae today too.. wanted 2 wish her bt she aint in. today's lesson din go well. was super stressful day 4 moi. had 2 handle wif many stuff.. hmm.. examz ard e corner n cher is teachin super fast.. i dunno. bt i hab a kinda feelin tt im habin some probs wif F***Z.. haha.. dunno.. mayb im tinkin too much.. bt i juz feel it.. it seems lyk we're driftin apart.. nt alittle bt alot lol.. haiz.. alicia lend me sum wonderful books.. very interestin.. omg.. im sumwat in love wif it... heart bubblez..haha.. im still on d look out of Leanne Banks books.. hope i'll find it soon.. been habin S.T.M now.. ahhh.. gettin old..erm.. LAME..*L* Dear god. i pray tt all tings will go smoothly 4 moi. pray tt you'll guide me thru all obsticals of life.. my journey thru life is a hardship at times bt i noe you're there constenly guiding me.. pray tt you'll ans me in any form of ways n teach me 2 change in character n thinkin too.. love u god.. Amen.. *Quote*(in life, i have learn 1 important ting. and tt is to keep all tings to yrself n nt let it out. write it dwn in a book or diary or pray. in many ways, bottle it up.)

raining

2005-10-25T16:06:00.000+08:00

haiz.. raining today heavily.. ahhh.... i still remember wat i use to tell siwei.. hmm.. wen it rains, it means tt heaven is upsad or unhappy abt something. Wen u c black clouds, it means tt evil spirts r here to scare d little kids bt dun worry, the good spirts(white clouds) will chase them away.. haha.. *yuan* ytd i slept late again last nite.. 2am.. cld nt wake up tiz morning n lazy 2 wake up too.. haha.. i goin gaga over romance stuff.. omg.. im mad.. haha.. hmm... i gtg.. b back 2nite 2 add on.. frnds cumin over.. :) (siwei hope u're better.. may u gt better soon.. n hope u'll do excellent 4 ur examz too.. jia you..)

==

2005-10-25T01:00:00.000+08:00

ive updated new pics today.. schs boring.. i wanna go 4 holi n i wan holi 2 start soon too.. ahh... hope i get my job.. *yuan* gettin tired.. hmm.. exams n projects n memorizing r killin me.. help!!!! haha.. ~life back 2 normal ~totaly engross over Romance now..ohoh..

rain

2005-10-16T17:14:00.000+08:00

OMG.. i gt caught in d rain..it was rainin cats n dogs.. i was lyk totally frezzin.. frm church 2 d bus stop was okie bt reachin my bus stop 2 home was NOT!!! every1 watched me run 4 shalter.. *sob sob* in d end, i had 2 find shalter at aunty emily's place.. luckily they were at home or else... ahhhh... i dun wan 2 tink of other wise.. been havin chest pain on n off oso dunno y.. haha..mayb im ageing..haha..erm..oppz.. :)

meaninful post

2005-10-16T09:10:00.000+08:00

info

2005-10-16T01:22:00.000+08:00

put up pics on d rite

My reply

2005-10-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

~SIWEI~ read her blog.. really mis her alot.. (haha..i cld nt pronounce her name properly wen i was much younger.. oways mispronouncing her name..oppz n u had 2 teach me how 2 pronounce it properly)~http://silverymoments.blogspot.com~ grew up together, we both were more lyk sisters but closer den tt. nv did we fight, nv did we fail 2 b there 4 each other. we did everyting 2gether. We both have our similarities such as we both love junk food and chocolatez.. Yaa.. i muz our days wen we ate from the same pot of porriage. halfed an apple.and we teachin each other how to cross the road, not to forget our pillow fight we use 2 have jumping on e beds makin a mess, play dress up, bakin cookies etc... remember our little gurl dream?? 2go2 e same sch n we did.. sec life came n we dreams were fulfilled. We entered d same sch, havin u as my god sis, writin letters 2 each other wif out fail and celebratin each others burfdae 2gether.. Lantern fest was a memorable 1.. walkin thru d cemetery's past midnite wif jus 2 lanterns n we clung on 2 each other tightly. funny ting, our parents din noe we wen there..haha.. i still clearly remember our times in sennett n wat we did..was sooo fun...i mis our game.. our lets see who cry 1st.. bt wen u r sad u oways win n i'll b there crying wif u. n wen im sad i win n u'll seat bside me n cry wif me.. we shared our sorrows n pain n our most deepest secrets wif each other. b4 u left u baked me sum cookies n b4 u left i baked u a chocolate cake..almost d same. I'll leave a note 4 u here on n off as often as i can.. i miss u ... love u.. 4eva will u b my gardian angel n my soulmate. signin off jan

sometimes... Sometimes..

2005-10-07T21:36:00.000+08:00

Why me? why? im always at fault.. if clothings aint done mum n dad always look up 4 me.. i've seen so many of my frnds bt their parents dun do tt 2 them.. i try 2 make my parents happy bt they always come back screaming at me.. mayb is bcuz im in ite or mayb im frm nt or em3 while kor is in jc, frm ACS(I), studning medi amin 4 a doc degree while me? nth. or mayb cuz my 3 younger cousins 1 frm a top gals school d other 2 in a wel known sch as 1 is in em1 n d other in a gd stream n i was nt.. I hate life.. Y was i born d youngest. Y was born a gal nt a boy? dad n mum always dots on kor. Y? ZHONG NAN QING NUI!!!! nt fair nt fair.. y can kor have late nites n i cant? y? y? wat if i was nv here!!!! LIFE IS NV FAIR!!!!! i try my best... i really tried my best.. y cant u all c??? wish siwei was here!! i really miss her.. duno y.. everytime im sad, i always remember abt d childhood days.. why cant i turn back time n be young again? Can someone make a time machine n tunr back time 4 me? or someone plz rewrite history...

wats d title? i duno.

2005-10-03T13:33:00.000+08:00

Jus arrived home from ah tai po po's wake. is 1340. Cant believe that once u say leave you'll depart. to have a family member or someone so close to u depart, is really a heart pain ting. mostly pple wil say, lyk animals, once they die, buy another one lah or once spoil buy another. But no! Life is not that. once u go, no one can replace hu u were. Ah tai po po was one of a kind u may say. She was mor lyk jesus. she helps others wen their in need. Thou she's old, she lived a happy life. I stil remember those days wen i wen 2 c her. Her words to me still lingers within me. She'll say. "Mei mei nei you tok shi ma?, can lek tok she and you tang papa mama." Thou i noe little canto, is translated 2 tiz. "Mei mei you got study? must study hard and must listen to your parents." Will update her historical profile soon.. mayb bah.. Ah tai po po will always stay in my heart 4eva. Miss her dearly..

tired

2005-09-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

haiz..i have been so tired lately..last nite was a blast. every1 came.. there were lots of food. every1 Njoyed themselves..haha..kar hua came n my cousins came to.. so fun..food was yummy..e ting ended at abt 12+ nearly 1..wat a blast..haha..today is d actual day of lentan fest..haiz..is no fun..miz siwei..mostly she's e 1 hu oways makes my mooncake fest e happiest day..wish she was here..:( feel so lost wifout her..:( anyway..2dae i did song leading..so cool..all the kids seem 2 love it.. i tot them a new song bt 2 e teens it is kinda old..is "I love u jesus deep down in my heart(x2) talk about a deep deep down down deep down in my heart(x2)" we sang n luafed alot..the kids really seem ed 2 Njoy themselves..haha..now we're creaking wat 2 do 4 them on childerens day..haha..tink tink..any suggestions..??haha..hmm..nope i dont..does any1 have??haha..anyway..oh guess wat..i've been writing my very own novel..and pple say is good..im so engross on it now..haha..i juz tink of nth bt juz writting n writting..haha..anyway..i on e nex chap now..gtg..signing off..chocolatejan..haha..

haa..

2005-09-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

haa..today wen 2 work..haiz..was okie..haa..got 4 declined passengers..haiz..wan wchr den in e end dun wan..waste my time..haiz..{-_-"}hmm..wat else? oh yes..guess hu i saw!! fann wong..omg..was waitin 4 my passenger at d LH flight n she came out in a blur out fitt..heez..wearin a cap too..haha..hmm..caroline wanted 2 c 5566 bt they came early den we heard tt wang ren fu will b there at ard 5-7 so we wen 2 t1 2 c bt cld not..haiz..today i oso was super sad... got humilated by tiz passanger..still remember his name..mr eddie chia..yeekz..he praticly toked n humilated me all d way till d belt..boomin me wif qus after qus..dun mind me bt now i find rosemary lessons, wat she say r true.."SINGAPOREANS DONT TIP" so kiam siap 1..at least a doller or 2 will satifiy ma..not even a thank u..haiz..y?y? huh..bt i cant say oh u r singaporen..oh cant push u cuz u dun tip or oh..u singaporean ar..erm..u tip me den i push u? i will receive me 1st letter 4m d company n get kicked out..nvm..life is life..wat ta do??haiz..

sick

2005-09-02T14:43:00.000+08:00

Sick?? mi nope..bt of mi blog skin...used it 4 so long le..sian..haha..chnaged le..haha..cool..wen back 2 c kinder tchers n sec chers..haha..HAppy tchers day..wen shoppin ytd wif cassy..bought ear rings came home n guess wat!! yupp gt scoldin 4 buyin mor..mum was lyk..u gt tons of them oready..wat can i do? im a shopper!!haha..wen 4 4 lao e bdae party..wow big 8..still goin strong she is..came home really late..tired..slp..oya..superstar..weilian got in..wow..tot was gonna b kelly..haiz..wat did i mis out here..hmm...yupp din turn up 4 days weeks months..so long.. feel so empty..sob sob..sorRy..ohya..i been spendin toooooo much..i now m broke..wat 2 do??????????????????? sum1 plz tell moi... BIG NEWS: mi supervisor changed le..tts good hate my previous supervisor..she sux..hmm..havent celebrate yet..muz do it sum day...

anger

2005-08-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

long time no c.. *dun mind my words if i do use a few valgal words* today tt fucking sucky idiot chicken backside mad woomen played me off..make me go wait 4 sum1 den pass it 2 sum1 else nv tell me..den still have e fucking nerves 2 ask me do OT..fat hope..she b supervisor is such a shame..i'll list a few y she disgrace her sit as supervisor..1. she sux 2. give pple wrong gate 3. give pple wrong passenger 4. play pple off 5. she does not noe how 2 roster job cards 6. she lyks fav'tisem 7. she bully pple 8. she dun let pple eat 9. she can have a peaceful lunch while we cant 10. her smile on her face suxz n looks lyk a rotton banana. duno wat other tings 2 write abt her. haha...bt she gt alot of horrid staff 2 write abt her..hw i wish she will gt kicked out soon or even better get sick go on long long vacation(MC) she wans 2 play? sure, i'll play wif her..such kind of fuckin pple cant b sweeet n kind..

oppz

2005-05-14T10:58:00.000+08:00

haiz...i din cum ytd...was super busy..loads of stuff 2 sattle...haiz..aniway..y i din cum ytd was cuz ytd in sch was fustratin..at 1st there were 24 pple goin 4 d bbq n now its dwn 2 16-19 pple goin..wat a drop..haiz..den tt 2pit ZK say oh i will pay wen evey1 has paid n wen they did, he said oh i dun wan 2 go le n i no money..den y waste my time u 2pit freak..i dun care abt my words abt him he sucks..SUCKS..muz bold d words SUCKXXX more better..dun gif a freakin dame abt it ha.. okie i dun wan 2 b remembered abt tt..we(joanne,me,eslyn n si yu was online ytd n discussed abt d food n redid d listin..so ma fan..worse cum 2 worse i tink gals muz donate cash 2 d BBQ fund..heez. oppz..alot of food tt we will be orderin..i hope it wont rain on tt very dae..*please god dun let it rain on d BBQ date n please i pray tt u will make it windy n sunny so we cld hab a blast 4 d dae..Aman* heez.. ;) i'm gonna work 2 dae hope i gt more cash in..haiz..i need it.. n i hope my interview will go well on tuesday..i will hab 2 pray 4 tt 2..my bro i sld guess is doin gd nw..he seems 2 be gettin back 2 his normal self bt smth nt..all i noe is tt he loves her alot alot..i dun noe bt all i hab 2 say is lyk more den me n himself.. he misses her alot..i can see tt frm his eyes..hope he is doin fine..oya..as i promised, i will do a profile 4 my ITE frnds yeah as i did 4 my Sec frnd..n b4 i start onn tt, ytd was ming kar's bdae(13-5) n 2dae is jing's bdea(14-5) HAppie bUrFdAe jInG..luv ya..mucks..okiei shall not waste time start nw.. ITE Frndsthere r..okie alphbatical order den..Bernadette:I dun noe abt her bt she laufs alot n i mean alot..lyk wen we dun seem its funny bt it is 2 her? weird...Charmain: she is really sweet always there 4 me funny n bubbly..yup..preety 2..Oooo..(wan 2 image her,tink of Li zi qing)Eslyn:She has lyk all d latest tok of d town n world..lyk wen tis idol is cumin etc..cool..tt y i hab been lyk noein abt those pple cumin dwn..seriously i din really lyk energy at 1st bt cumin 2 ITE nt only her bt joanne n sum of my other ex-mates has been tellin me abt them n my poor ear has nw nth abt all corapted with energy n other idols latest news..n tt's cool n i mean cool cool...haha..preety 2..*hint hint: they r all single erm..most of my frnds..*Hui Xuan:She's cute..smart,preet sweet...if i was a guy mite consider..huh..haha tt will hab 2 wait tillmy next life ba..haha..she is lyk gd in her studies n mostly we wil rush 2 her 2 help us wen exams r near..our little tcher..n suprisingly,she is older den me by only 2 daes makes no diff im still younger then her..heez..Jia Xin: she is another bubbly 1 in class..always greetin others with her bright smile n he little pose while wavin her hand..preety 2looks lyk d RnB gal zai zai..Joanne:she is funny very has a loud voice n always makin every1 lauf..she is totaly attracted 2 toro..hey if they do gt 2gther i wont find it suprising bt they will hab 2 noe each other 1st..oppz..she is cute cld say wat guys r lookin 4 ba..oppz..(dun chop my head off)..heez..Jocelyn:i hardly speak 2 her bt she is close 2 Jia XIn..she is cute bubbly 2..she has those radiant smile..sweet lookin..Li Ping:wow..she ar..loves prawns..she is tall..i mean tall tall..n sssuuppeerr thin..can b a model..sure hit d covers de..heez..preety 2..has ming xing look..looks lyk a korean actress 4 gt her name..Ning Wei: she is older den me lyk a big sister 2 me she is..carin cute n bubbly 2...^sorry im rushin need 2 gt read 4 work soon^Pei Rong:she loves SHE lots lots..she is funny gd frrnds wif joanne..Shi Mei: she use 2 b very quiet bt nw i guess she has kinda open up le..toks alot abt SHE n Energy etc..too..last bt nt least Xiang Lin :she looks lyk sly n energy d ah di..haha..she is very energatic..heathy 2..haha..hyper 2..heez..okkiie i gtg le..late 4 work..tata 4 nw hihi 4 ltr..cheerz..chocolatejan signin off..

me

2005-05-12T14:24:00.000+08:00

im back...i dont noe y bt now i tink i hab 2 make it as a habit 2 write in my blog at least everyday...blog is lyk a dairy 2 most pple as i c..we share both our happieness sadness madness etc 2 tiz blog here..haha..y i say tt i muz hab a habit cuz u mite nt noe when u leave tiz world or u mite 4get wat happen 2 day few yrs dwn d road so tiz is d reason...i find life so precious..it's juz lyk a fragile glass tt can be gone once it drops..i use 2 tink life is lyk a movie bt my bro told me tt wat im thinking is wrong..life is precious.. treasure it..yup..okie lets start my journal nw.. okie..2dae i din hab sch tt's lyk so totally cool..lessons CANCELLED..so i stayed at home n did my usuals..my dalies (i brush my teeth, comb my hair n changed my underpants haha[washed my face to of course]) watched tv,read my novels n did my studies..cooked lunch for miself n dad n now on d com..i have 2 cook dinner 2 nite..hmm..tink tink..wat 2 cook?haiz..cookin is fun bt tinkin of wat 2 cook aint fun cuz d pple etin it mite nt lyk it..haiz..i'll juz do my li'le couz fav..ikan belies and lunchon meat fried rice..sounds yummy 2 me..oppz..drolling..haha...i have always wanted 2 write a story and 2 be read by others or even played on screen bt where should i head to? i wish i can fulfill my dreams..i did promise my wei po tt i will fulfill my dreams no matter wat n i told it 2 her at her death bed b4 she was carried away..i muz jia you..a jr of mine inspired me in writtin my stories dwn in a webbie as she had done n suprisingly i read 1 of her stories n it was gr8..i wan 1 2..i sound lyk a kid whinning 4 a double chocolate ice cream..heez..tinkin of tml nw..im sick 2 d stomach..test test test..is not only testin on a few chps bt d WHOLE BOOK..i rather not study bt juz do a op my squshin d book in mi brain so i wint hab 2 study(i noe..YEEK! disgustin bt hey wat else can i tink of?) i miz my sec sch life..i miz my friends..lyk..i wil name a few.. <<SECONDARY SCHOOL MATES>> kala: her loud laughter,cookie monster cranks n my gradian angel(haha) ponna: she turned 2 b lyk kala aft she n d drama queen din cum close..mis her 2..was lyk a sister 2 me thou.. ashma & aisha: d 2 gals hu wont b seprated were also d load laughter in d class always lufin away n everyting(tis 4 gals noe hw 2 brighten d class) yi jing:jing 4 short..my closest n bestest frnd eva..she a big sis 2 me..treats me lyk a sis(godsis she is 2 me)she is bubbly 2 bt a sleepy head wen it cums 2 lessons..haiz..bt she's cool 2 be wif. qiu ping: 4 short ah ping..another gal hu is funny 2..loves 2 eat n sleep..rem had 2 intro her once n she said jus say i love to eat n sleep as an intro abt her can le n ttz wat i did..heez shu min:4 short ah min..a gal hu loves 2 play cards wif d class boys oh addin tt wif kit..both r always found playin card games..haiz..duno wat fun they found in it..is all wwf pics guys on top of one an other fighting..wat r they up 2?was tt fun? kit ying: 4 short kit..(kit chen haha)she has d fetures of ella u noe SHE ella?1der y she din sign up d adution 4 look alike superstar? wat a waste..haiz..she is one of d gals hu love 2 play crad games wif ah min n d boys.. hwee eng:short name still d same..we use 2 call her lao da as she has d look of 1..bt she is a really good true friend 2 me..was there 4 me wen i needed her..jing 2..oya..d boys.. ming kar,daniel,terrance,willy,choon leong,gabriel..etc: al d same..card games card games n more crad games bt duno y..even thou they play card games they r good in their studies..weird..mayb it has smth 2 do wif thos cards..needa do research on it,,haha..yup these r my frnd oya i 4 gt a betch..d indian boys.. d indian boys: callin themself d smth tigers..1der hw they r nw? d NOISES grp amg all..haiz..wif them ard u can nv slp in peace..haiz..haha..okie i tink tt sld b all shall continue tml..wil tel ya abt my ITE frnds then..cool yeah..tataz..its tata 4 nw n hihi 4 tml..cheerz!

nil

2005-05-11T18:02:00.000+08:00

it took me soo long just to do up my blog.. PHEW!! at last i have finish it.. my mid exams are around the corner and my holi 2... i got another job too... yeah! so that double my pay..haha... today...hmm.. lets c..mi wen 2 east coast to book bbq pit but failed to do so.. hab lunch at PW hab ban mian tom yam soup...wah...hot hot hot..haha..wif eslyn charmain n li ping..i cant wait for 1-6 bbq gathering day..yuppie..i havent been blogging nw as my studies are corupting it.. and alot has happened.. my kor i duno y bt i noe he is hurtin inside bt he does not show it..my kor is really strong...kris i hope u will guide my bro thru..every1 misses u.. i will pray 4 my kor bt i hope he will resume back to his normal way asap..i hate seeing him look so miserable.. okie i dun wanna tok sad stuff le...tok happie stuff.. i m gonna go 4 a weddin dinner soon n i NEED A DRESS!!! SOS..haha.. bt nvm mite go out wif yee ling jie 2 buy or i mite hab no clothes..oppz.. {-_-"} heez... now i noe d hardship of earning money 2.. as im workin at d airport, i gt lots of happie n sad expreance.. bt d most tiring.. legs very painful..need massage massage...heez.. gonna dye my hair soon..shhh... oppz wrote it dwn..nvm..bt shhh...okie..heez...wat colour? duno c 1st... okie i stop here..mi hungry..wanna eat cookie..heez..cookie time..na..its dinner 4 me...cant spoil my appitite as mi mummy cooking yummy stuff..haha..tata 4 now n hihi 4 tml..(ifi do blog tts it) and 4gt 2 say..hi yl jie..hope ur job is doin find..hope we will go shoppping soooooon...heez..cya.

sighz long time le

2005-03-08T08:23:00.000+08:00

sighz sighz sighz...long time nt bein here 2 update...sobz sobz...heez..i've been rather busy n stressed wif sch...lotz 2 study n all nw...nt really my cup of tea..duno y i choose d course bt im still happie ther cuz i made lotza gd frnds...soo happie... :) haha...in sch nw nt listenin 2 lessons is lyk a sin oready yeah..yup yup yup..ttz wat im doin...im in class doin my blog while my OA tcher is teachin...aint i mean...haha... aniway...duno if it was tru, read lotza net info abt starz datin in screat bla bla bla...duno y reporters muz b so kpo...i noe itz their job bt at time we need 2 gif those pple a break n let them live as normal n nt gettin a huge crowd 2 follow them where ever they go..sighz..pity them...bt mayb 4 me, im a little kpo 2...ttz wat pple r...cant blame them 2..haiz...

haiz

2004-12-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

i really duno watz wrong wif me...haha..my frndz say im weird..cuz i suddenly change my likes on zhao wei...haha..they all say ttz nt d real mi..really?haha...mayb...i will change..2dae i duno if my dae was good or bad either...letz point out wat i did 2dae okie...hmmm...i went 2 c on my teeth n went out wof yeeling jie n my 2 little couzies...heez..haiz..1der wat 1 did...my mood juz change soo fast..everytime i c a glass pot or a vase,im owayz reminded of wat happen wen i went wof siang jie jie,meiyi n yeeling jie out 2 buy her cloths..im oways reminded of d breaking sounds..**confess**i broke a vase at a jwellery stall..really guilty n everyting..wat sld i do??everytime i c a glass pot or glass vase my mind oways flasebacks on d verydae...**[fualt]**mine..haha..my mood is terrible nw...*EXTREAMLY*i hate life so much bt love it 2...im all mixed up..totally..i duno wat 2 do..help..YEEKZ..my life is juz lyk a stock market bt WORSE den it..it can go up so fast n suddenly down lyk a crashin plane..hmm...as i owayz say..haha...my 2 fav pharse..you fell once, twice, but don’t ever give up half way in reaching for your goals…n life is lyk a movie..bt there is 1 differance..u r d actor,d director,d scriptwritter n audiance..bt d prob is u cant rewrite d story line s wat is oways done...

i fustrated n happy....which m i?

2004-12-08T08:15:00.000+08:00

.:Fustrated:.i m extreamly all worked up...i dunno wat i really wan now..which is more important 2 mi?my frnds or my dreams?within tiz 2 which sld i choose?is tt d ITE tt most of my gd frnds r goin 2 does nt hab course tt i wan n d ITE tt i dunno whu will go,has my course...n a BIG prob...both schz r close 2 my home...which 1 which 1 sld i choose?i cried alot ytd cuz i was all fustrated..i really juz dunno..wat sld i do?n i've oready promised my grndma tt i will fulfill my dreams no matter wat..i really dunno...i really dunno..n my results r comin out in 9 days time...n i habent made my desion yet..wat sld i do???? .:Happy:.haha...okie ttz my fuz im happy cuz zhao wei is cumin down...weired y did suddenly start 2 lyk her??i myself cant ans..bt find her a gd singer n actress..pretty 2...haha...heard tt she will b a prsenter at d star awards..cool...totaly cool...haiz...nv seen her b4 in singapore haha..1st time ba...sld i go?i duno..another fuz...YEEKZ...*:(

huh..

2004-12-07T10:27:00.000+08:00

at last im back again...i redid my site...haha...duno watz wrong wif me??itz lyk love is in d air...haha...i m damit...mad..haha..jkjk...it has been so long since i stepped in here thou..miz alot..aniway..holi has been gr8..watch tv all d way n gt a job gt mi 1st pay..haha..cool yeah...bt nw no longer..m nw volerterrin n schz as hey hey...a tcher..love kids...so cute n adoreable...is lyk wen i c dem n i m down i turn sooo happy..aft my grdma passed away which was nt 2 long ago,i promised her tt i will gt 2 my dreams n fulfill it no matter wat n ttz wat im gonna do...rite away...jan..jia you o..haha..

at last

2004-10-15T11:29:00.000+08:00

at last...N lvl is way over n holi has b'gun...sooo happy...lookin 4 a job..hope 2 find it soon..wanna buy tons of VCDs tt i havent watched yet..haha..i muz jia you...

nanana

2004-08-31T14:11:00.000+08:00

haha...sigh...2daes t'chers dae..=) n i hab nt cum in here 4 long..haha..aniway..examz r over n N lvl nex week..NEXK WEEK okie..HARRR...1 after another...sian...t'chers dae concet was cool...okie lahzzz i muz say...bt USSS concets r so much more better...love n miss USSS...made cards etc...din cum out well but haha..cleaver me..covered it up..made it look superb...HEEzzz...YES!...tml holi...bt pamla's leavin...booo hooo....gonna miss her alot...extreamly...=( haha...d lower sec did a broadway dance...erm...kinda good...singin was sooo...out of tune bt a few was gd...den came d upper sec...did our speech..ha...let only d 4E n 5N speck den hw abt us? aint we graduating 2? hate them...haha...nt gonna do ani ting 4 them..haha...=p

IM TIRED

2004-08-22T19:34:00.000+08:00

2dae...sigh...singapore lost d broze...nvm..we still hab nex year...as i said...singapore is a "CHAMPION"okie...i will summerize my dae... --AM-- <8>-left 4 church <10.30>-wen shoppin at parkway <11.30>-left 2 cum hm... --PM-- <12>-reached hm...haaaaaa....rest <12.30>-left...go 2 nam sin rd <1.10>-reached nam sin rd...makan makan makan...saw couz...yup... <3.20>left nam sin rd... <4>-reached home...watched super sunday..studied... <6>came out 2 watch singapore li jia wei vs korea kin hyang ah <7>haha...tt's nw... yup tt'z my day...gtg...study 4 maths AGAIN...=)

huh....i wanna cry...

2004-08-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

boo hoo hoo...im gonna cry...i had maths p1 2dae...i din do abt 5 qus..hard 1s...YEEK.......i m a gonner...gonna fail...can say bye bye le...dun wanna tok abt d test...

okie...

2004-08-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

haha...guess wat..im back..okie...thou i cried n cuz of my maths...i m trin 2 aim 4 maths p2...good luck...i m pretty down 2dea...cried den maths n nw tiz...singapore lost 4 d gold...aniway therz still broze...haha...bt aniway...SINGAPORE IS STILL D BEST...WIN OR LOSE ALL THOSE PPLE HU FORT R STILL OUR "CHAMPION"LOVE U SINGAPORE...

yes!!

2004-08-20T21:22:00.000+08:00

haha...im back...yup...haha...im extreamly happy!!!!...Y?cuz singapore has gt in2 d S.F...haha..soo cool...yes...yes...yes...

good gref....

2004-08-20T16:57:00.000+08:00

sobz..sobz...i hab mi EOA test 2dae...dem hard...din noe hw 2 do...d class was sooo nosiey...cld nt concentrate...nt at all...aniway d startin was kinda easy bt d section B was bloody hard...i was lyk crackin my hard...fell lyk hitin my head...haha...ask sum1 2 hey u...hit me hit me hit me...they mite tink im super mad...send me 2 mental hospital...haha....aniway...i juz hope i can pass...oya...tt koh...b4 d clock cld strike 12.15 n it was 12.10,he started collectin...idiot...waste 1min of mi time...stupit....huh...cant 4gt d boys..keep borrowin tings...haha...nt only tt...throwin tings n nt amin properly...1der hw they play basketball??

huh...

2004-08-19T15:55:00.000+08:00

i m totally bushed...exam 2dae totally suxed...i din even noe hw 2 do it...chi chi chi...grrr...2 tink of it,it makes me cold...brreee....yeekz...came hm at abt 11++ had my lunched n as usual...on com...chat chat chat...blah blah blah...gonna b sick soon...tml EOA...yeah...10++ go 2 sch...cool...sat cant slp in sch again...whole weel busy busy busy...wen can N lvl end...haha guess wat...maths t'cher came 2 sch late...wat d hack...t'cher can cum 2 sch late!!!y cant we???muz throw a riot...haha....

2004-08-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

i'm back...

2004-08-18T13:28:00.000+08:00

hey hey..im back....juz fin my paper...haha...paper was kindaeasy n hard...din noe hw 2 do alot of question...boo..hoo..hoomuz jia you 4 my N lol...if fail den die le...haha...aniway...we had our test combined wif d other class...noisey nosiey nosiey...wow...soo many question duno hw 2 do...den access do wrongly..2pit formula...=(...die die lol...

i love u Jesus

2004-08-18T08:26:00.000+08:00

wOw...2dae sch starts at 9.30am...totally cool...slp till 8++ n nw on d com...heez...pig me...no wat...at least i woke up at 8 nt 10...heez....2dae i hab a CPA paper 2 sit 4...kinda nurves bt i juz gotta relex....As i noe smth...god is wif me...juz b'side me...oways...n 4eva...i juz thx him 4 bein wif me wen eva i need him...

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